You think you know what you're in for. What you will say in every situation that may come up in this crazy dynamic that you’ve had a part in creating. How you will act. You may even rehearse your words. You might check your facial expressions in the mirror to make sure you're able to convey the message you want to send.
And when you're there in that moment, you probably end up speaking from your heart, fumbling the lines you rehearsed, forgetting your expressions you practiced, not caring that you're talking in a run-on sentence because it's coming from a place that's real and true and damn it, it's much too exhausting to know or care where the boundaries are or should be sometimes.
They say when you look back on it all, you'll see things much differently than you did at the time. You may dismiss the rough parts. You may exaggerate them. You will forget things that happen. You WILL create memories to fill in the gaps.
But you already know that.
Even in the moment.
And you speak with your heart anyway, knowing it still may not be enough.
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